for a moment, for a brief moment till yesternight i didn’t welcomed today. i just dreamt all the possible ways to think on the postpone of today. but just guess what?! today was amazing! just fucking interesting!
i wake up kind of late today, not so late to be tardy. i skipped my exercises, yet got bathed, ate a fruit as my stomach is not very fine last night and then wore my good fit. everything was on line. to reach the bus stop, i need to use the bike. i usually go with my dad cause he needs the bike to work. on going with him, he was trying to tell me enjoy and on the way, he pointed out a red flower tree. “that’s so beautiful isn’t it?” he said. “yes dad very much, i wish to have it soon.” i said. and he said something that ponders my thoughts. “isae, do you know why most of the worry abides, it is cause we human have the tendency to have it than to admire, if we see a beautiful thing our heart yearns to admire but mind, however plans to have it tactfully. and the grief? to have is not going to happen always but to admire is freedom, you don’t have a restriction on admiring things.”
this was mind blowing. woah. i mean most of the time in my life. i shamelessly admit, i conquer to have things that passes my eyes. so i must develop the sense to admire cause that is what makes a human, whole. i think we all are born villian, if don’t have our right people to make us heros, we might end up vicious.
when i enter the bus after reaching my stop, a sensation of happiness spreaded over my pericardium. i was so amazed to see my bus mate and had a fun with driver uncle. it's good in the bus, the seat, the view and the friends.
i reached my college had a printout of my grad page and walked towards the atm for a transaction and it failed. i have no idea what that is for. some says if you use online mode often, your atm freezes your card. i am assuming it’s cause of the atm isn’t filled with money as the security guard told me they usually fill today at 11.
i walked towards my class. worst classroom allocation. near the vice principal room and head of the department office. after assembly, we sat in the last bench. it was cool. i was kind of happy. it’s good like really good. even on the first day the first thing to ask is not about the holidays it’s about the project. we looked down the ground, each other’s eyes to avoid the professor question.
and the most funny part? my professor just resigned the post. wow. something i am very happy about is my professor allocation. i never thought i would get my favourite professor but now, they were just gone. i was little sad. that professor inspires me to be new and authentic. but the twist? a new professor joined in. seriously that new one is our college alumni. like seriously? how do people join our college as professors? yes, it’s a good college but also it’s like nah. do you get it?
me and my friend were the only two members assigned to them. rest all the professors had like 6 students but this new prof had 2 of us.
the day went vaguely. actually i was in a scholarship thing. and the problem is the government has some transcript issues. i wish to get this scholarship. like eleven of us. i was running over to the office room for my approval, for the rest of us. i pray it goes alright.
the day was kind of free, the professors were minimum, two of them were out this year. we had the same prof to handle many courses, nevermind that prof does bothers us. they keep on calling us to the front bench. i don’t know why professors likes to irritate the back bench peoples. we are just talking. ha…to sit in the first bench and to see the prof face seems like a hell. they are good, they are easy with us but i do not like this stuff on the first bench.
afterwards, the prof talked about paying the fee. and then they goes like “people can’t steal what they can’t see and what they don’t know. so if you have money, go to office room and pay it, don’t tell anyone about your money hold. be safe.” i am thinking about their words not only on money but on anything. if you feel something so close, it is always better to be private. it is not selfishness if making you say spoil it’s happiness. you decide what to say and what not too. this thought was really cool.
after then, today has been a half day, so i came in the noon, sat in the bus. abd there a familiar voice called over me. that friend is my school buddy too, and the news this is, over old schoolmates decided to start a group. it was very funny, like what now seriously? but i joined in anyway. there was still problems going on. some didn’t join due to fights and bad memories. my school life was not good, but not bad too. if they talk about meet over, me joining them is a question mark.
and then i had a call with my another schoolmate like 10 missed calls, they were so shocked to know the start of this group, like absolutely— it was really unreal of us. we are not good then why? people keep asking me why like— i created this group. i didn’t have touch with my school pals after joining my college, i didn’t wanted to be. i just know like around 3 or 4 and that was kind of enough.
i came home with an headache. i forget to board down at my stop. the bus bursted with a laugh cause the bus was still and i was like for whom it’s stopping and then it was for me. i said sorry and then frolicked towards my stop and then, i skipped into the bush. luckily no harm. it was fun. my dad looked at me strangely, didn’t ask why. not even are you okay stuffs, i sar quietly beside him. maybe, he’s letting my insane self go insane. he asked my college day, very cool i said and they he replied with a chuckle, “i can see”.
and then, i just closed my eyes in the bed, dreaming of a heaven. in tiredness i see, rest. take care, hope your day went fine too!
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